1st day of semester

So, all the things I've accomplished today:

I went to a club meeting. They seem nice, but that's never been my problem. My problem is not they people aren't nice, it's that I'd rather just stay in and not rock my boat too much.

2nd: I went to see my advisor to fix my class schedule and ask about graduation. Need to talk to another advisor about that graduation thing.

3rd: about that meeting. Fun, but still makes me nervous. I went once. Do I have the courage to go again. Let's see how courageous I am next week.

4th: I went to the bookstore. Didn't buy any of the books because I was not prepared. So I'll have to go back again...

5th: Researched some book prices online. Still have not finished.

Maybe I'm tired. But I feel awful right now.

Guy At Sam's

Every time I go into Sam's, there's a possibility of me running into a guy I used to know. But whenever we (either he or I) make eye contact, I froze. He froze. I think that we both suspect that we know each other and remember each other from class, but there's a trepidation in our movements. We both stop then stare then walk by each other. It's a routine we both do.

It didn't use to be this way. A while after class ended and the semester ended, I saw him working at Sam's and it was, "Hey, how are you! I didn't know you work here? How's it going? Yea, still studying." It's been a while since either of us said hi to each other. Now it's awkward silence followed by "should I say something?" dilemma in my mind.

It's sort of a childish tug-of-war of who will be the first to break the silence. Next time I say. Next time I'll step up and take the first step. Next time...

Absence

OK, so I haven't posted in months. I think October was my last know post date. Nothing much has been happening. I didn't disappear to travel the world or discover whatever.

Uncertainty and indecision has preoccupied me for the better part of those months. Yea, OK that's pretty much it. See nothing much...

Lip Balm Use Can Become Addictive

Lip Balm Use Can Become Addictive. This is ME! I must have a Natural Ice with me all the time. I carry it around more than I carry my phone. So far Drugstore.com is the only place I can find that sells it. Somehow, Wal-Mart and Kroger stopped selling it. I love it better than the crappy Chapstick brand that felt like I was putting heavy wax on my lips.

New Keyboard

Over the summer I bought a new keyboard. It's a sleek black number with Thai and English letterings(?) I've wanted this for a long time. Mainly for the Thai aspect of it. Having bought it, I keep staring at it. What do I do with a second (well, actually third. I have a keyboard attached to my laptop plus another one leftover from my old desktop).

I'm wanting to write Thai, but I'm not sure what I'm suppose to write about. Maybe I'll just try to write random things. Why not. I guess. It's such a huge letdown after having brought it. Last year, when I didn't have it, I ended up really missing it. I could read Thai discussion board but not participate. This time, I have the keyboard, but trying to read tiny Thai font on the computer screen makes my eyes bleed. I have no idea why the Thais have an obsession with writing so freakin' small. And that small writing translate into even smaller text on screen. Why torture me? I already have a hard time deciphering the text.

This is the opposite of when I was in High School where it was in vogue to write as big as possible even to the extent of filling the line. Maybe that's just for the girls, though. I don't know.

Happy 2007

It's a brand new year!

Christmas Day

Merry Christmas!

It's a rainy Christmas Eve

Sure is.

Foggy afternoon

It's getting increasingly foggy of late. I know there was talk of some rain in the area, so perhaps this fog is part of that.

I love these foggy-rainy afternoons. They are my favorite weather choice I guess I could say.

It's also been getting warmer. Last week I was wearing a thick sweater to sleep with two covers over me. The last couple of days, I started wearing my PJs to bed, and last night it was hot enough that I turned the fan on for a while.

I don't think it'll snow again. Well, I don't know that for sure, but usually we only have one period of snow per year, and that happened at the beginning of December. This is good news for me as I hope to have pleasant weather when I return to school.

Asian Market

I went to the Asian market today. It’s always a sight and an adventure. It can be a crazy place there with all the Asian people surrounded by crazy looking food. Today I saw a frozen eel. Whole and coiled.

It's a sight to see. Always a little disorganized, frenzy.

The boy's got me.

I haven't been writing as much this past month. Mostly it's due to schoolwork taking up time. There's also this boy that I've used up most of my free minutes thinking about.

The end of the semester is not even a week old yet, and I still am using all my free minutes thinking about that boy. It's always about some boy, isn't it? I just miss him. I miss the little jokes, the semi-flirting, and the laughing. I miss having something to look forward to. I miss being concerned about what to wear and look nice around him.

I missed him so much that I did something I hate, and it's completely irrational. I got one of those crappy, semi-spam emails about making a wish, and if you do, it will come true after you forward the same email to a thousand of your friends. If you don't, then beware the curse of not having a relationship for such and such amount of years. But if you were good and followed the instructions, then someone that loves you will ask you out. I was terrified of never seeing him again that I panicked and quickly followed all the instructions. If that email had been sent during a different state of my emotions, then it would be automatically deleted.

I think this is the first time I've experienced the emotion of wanting someone. The morning after I saw him, I couldn't concentrate. I panicked because after class ended I didn't know how else I was going to see him. I came up with excuses to try to call him because I didn't want him to forget about me. (So needy and pathetic, I know).

I am having a massive regret attack. I shouldn't have played hard to get because I really like him.

Cranky bitch bus driver

I rode the bus this morning. Mid way though the route, the bus driver stops the bus on the side of the road, opens the doors and got out. She ran with her coffee cup, poured the old coffee out, and went into the Seven Eleven. Yes, she left the bus on the side of the road, which was not a Dart bus stop, and proceeded to go shop at the 7-11. Didn't say a word about her intentions. Just got up and left the passengers there. We waited there for about 10 minutes before she came out with 2 drinks and some items, which she most likely brought in there. Came back on the bus and didn't say a thing. Just drove the rest of the route.

Not only did the driver make an unsanctioned stop, she has a bad attitude. The stop button on the bus didn't work, so before my stop, I went up to her and asked, "Can you stop at the next stop, please?" Her reply: "I know. It's a required stop." I know that I can't convey to you the condescension from the "I know," but trust me, it's there. At that very moment, I could feel my BP shoot up. God, I can't believe I'm getting this shitty treatment. Obviously, she’s a cranky bitch. Just because it's a required stop does not mean that the drive has to stop if no one needs to get off. Let's follow her logic. You automatically stop at a designated point on the schedule, so that will probably mean that you can only pick up at those stops too? Come on. Then why are there bus stop signs every few miles on a route? That's because the schedule just marks the main stops. Idiot.

After I got off, I went inside and wrote, "I hope the driver gets fired" on a piece of paper, folded it, and torn it up into pieces. I wish bad things for her. That's my therapy for you.

Organization

I spent yesterday cleaning up my room, which included vacuuming all of my hair (Gross? yes. It's one of the woes of having long hair.) off the carpet and wiping clean my bathroom sink. After that I moved on to organizing my school/assignment schedule. Put down all the due dates of assignments and test dates I so can study accordingly. Now I have some plan of attack. All of this took me close to a month to finally get too. I hadn't cleaned my room since I got back from Thailand.

I guess I didn't want to honeymoon to be over.

Girl at Shell

I guess it's really hard to look like you enjoy working there let alone act like you enjoy life. If you can't take the soul sucking nature of retail, then don't work there.

Small Space Big Style

SSBS. I'm watching an episode of this, and it's right up my alley. I'm constantly looking to decorate my room.

I now know who "Maria" is

Ever since I got my phone, occasionally I'll get these messages asking for "Maria." Obliviously I ignored them. Plus if they can't tell by my voice mail message that I'm not Maria, then it’s their fault.

Yesterday, on my way back from school, I was sitting on the train. I checked my phone and saw that I had 10 messages. TEN at around 4 pm. OH my. I though Clueless had tried to reach me.

While listening to the first few messages for Maria, I heard words like house, room, and I'm like whoa! "Can you come to my house? Hold on there. But it turned out, after I had listened to the messages at home, that they asked Maria to come to there house to clean. Yup, from what I gathered, Maria is a maid or house cleaner, or she does some type of cleaning in a house. So the mystery is solved. I'm a bonafide Veronica Mars. See, I have VM sleuthing skills.

As for the other messages, a law office or lawyer wanted a certain person (can't remember the name,) to call back.

So it's possible to get people to leave messages on a phone number, which I have owned for over a year now.

I would have thought, as I mentioned earlier, that once they heard my voice mail message that they would figure out that I'm NOT Maria. But on second thought, I should use that as my alias now.

Hello, I'm Maria.

Edit 12-2-06: A couple of days ago I received a phone call still asking for Maria. I'm not sure where Maria disappeared too, but those folks seem to have an outdated phone number. Maybe I should ask them what they want next time, so I can clear this whole thing up. No more Maria phone calls.

Bento craze

I discovered Bentos on flickr. OMG! They are adorable. It's part art and technique.

This is perfect because I've been looking for simple and healthy lunches to take to school with me since my days are long. Plus the college cafeteria lacks variety and healthy eating.

I don't think I'll be able to create the bentos, but it's an inspiration.

On holiday

Off to Thailand.

Be back in 2 months.

I ordered an XA2

I finally committed myself to buying an Olympus XA2 because I've only got days left till Thailand, and I really wanted the XA2 for taking pictures there. After bidding and then chickening out at the end, I realize having it there would be more awesome than awesome, and bid on the camera that was ending the soonest. I paid $20.08. Half of it was for shipping (figures). Anyway, it came with a flash and that was about it, I think. I don't know that it was the best deal. In fact, it wasn't, but I was desperate and running out of time.

Now I went back and looked at the listings and low and behold saw really great deals for the camera. Listings that came with the camera, flash, carrying case, and manual. Damn!

This is what happens. Anytime I commit to paying for something, the moment after I always can find better deals or realize that I don't need it anymore. Buyer's guilt, I assume.

My favorite place on the web

Makeup Alley. This place rocks! I've found my little piece of heaven on the vast Internet. Fun and resourceful. I'm going to consult them on products I buy from now on. Plus, it's a great place to find products to try.

This place is responsible for my increase spending lately. The site spoils me.