All I ever learned about life, I learned from the Internet

This references the earlier post I made.

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I know I'll come off as the saddest person ever when I say that my whole life revolves around the net, but it's the goddamn honest truth. I know it. And I'm sure some people could guess at it. All the cool, wonderful things I've encountered have come from the net or been reaffirmed by googling* it. Either way, it all comes back to the net. I wish I had other reasons than me being just a loser and a loner for spending this much time here. The truth is that I have no real life. Not really. And I don't have to spend as much time as I am right now on the net, but I choose to, and that may be the saddest thing of all. I choose to live a life spend surfing from page to page, from site to site for something or anything I think worthwhile that I can bookmark or put on my blog.

Now that I think about it, my blog has a lot to do with my decline in participating in the real, human world. I thought it would give me a chance to explore my thoughts, express myself better, and getting over my shyness, but it's made me sink deeper into dream world. I can't communicate with humans, so I choose to do it online, so that I can be anyone, take on anyone's personality I choose and have that represent me. It's the easier road, really.

Plus, I'm lying to other people and I'm lying to myself. The double whammy. The idea of the internet and living your whole here is very alluring, but is so void of human contact and any sort of fulfillment that it just makes life all that much harder. You can't find happiness in life or the net, then where can your get it? Granted, I haven't search all of the net yet, but I don't think my place should be here. It's hard to pull away, though. Like quitting cigarettes or alcohol. There are not easy or straightforward answers, again! I'm just going to have to ride the wave and remind myself where I should exist, and that's not here.

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* I mean, come on, you can find anything you want by "googling it." It's ridiculous how much info is contained in the web. Some use it for good, some use it for evil. I say, "Flip a coin, and see where it lands."