how to survive college?

I need tips. I've done two years with relative ease. Now I'm entering my final two years (well, it's suppose to be two years, but i'm having a hard time picturing myself finishing in two. i hear it has Somethingto do with me being lazy.) and i can't imagine how i'm going to enjoy it.

i looked at some syallbuses for history courses as well as english courses, and i have officially freaked myself out for the next ten years. O.M.G. How do former college graduated survive college is beyond me.

The courseworks as well as the amount of work is baffling. I can't do that. Well, I could, but it take every last breath i have to give. There'll be no more TV time for me.

FOr example, after my delightful idea of majoring in english lit, I explored their website only to find that the required reading lists avagerage about 10 writings per couse with novels, poetry, anarticles and other writings weighing the same. TEN. Now multiply that by the number of english lit courses you have to take. Also, take into account an average of 5 essays (and I'm being conservative here) that is required. ANd what do you get?

A crazy, sleep, food, time, tv deprived individual who's reasoning is that literature is the food of life, whose's career prospective is bleak in this job environment, whose has expended his or her intellectual capacities, but has a shrinking, if not a hole, in her bank account.

history isn't better. maybe a little. not much writing, or interpreting texts that i saw. still the course descriptions scare me the most. they sound or come across so damn hard. i mean hard. enough to scare me. really scare me. i know that it'll probably be nothing like it in real life, and it won't accuarately reflect how the class will be conducted, that will depend on the intstructor/professor, but it still doenst' allivate any of my fears, doubts.

I can't be bombarded on two fronts--living there and academnics. i need one if not both to work on. right now, i don't have confidence in either of them. i picked a place i might like, which will offer me more privacy, but there's still a lot that i don't know.

it doesn't help that i'm facing the fact that i might have to take a subject that i hated, i didn't enjoy, and vowed to aviod for all eternity: FRENCH. Well, if i had to choose, it would be french because it's the only language i've ever taken.

all these things combine doesn't make for an inviting college experience. how can i look forward to that?

i'm letting things run its course, and i guess i'll have to deal with it when it comes up. i'm staying my current course. i'm not going to change it, even though, in my gut, i hate to go.

i'm hoping the trip will give me perspective, but it's not a gurantee, and it'll be too late then.

i wish i didn't have that hanging over me. STUPID FRENCH. ruining all my plans. i was in denial about not having to take it beofre, but the prospect of having to take 4 semesters of it will drive me insane. insaen enought to considering not going there at all.

i've looked around, and it seems standard that languague is now required. gosh, who impletnedt that. i wish i had know sooner, then i would have taken it earlier, and i wouldn't have this problem.

i tend to worry for no apparent reason, or at things that doesn't deserve that much worry over, but this is paralyzing me.