a low

I'm experiencing a low. Severe low. I'm terrified. All this unhappiness and stuffiness. Sometimes, I don't know how I deal with it all. I'm glad I live with my heads in the cloud most of the time, and denial sets in quick enough for me to forget about it...for a while.

I don’t want to be like this. I would change it all. I would trade it all in. Lucky the net has become my outside world. I can't believe I let myself get away with it. Sometimes I feel physically suffocated. My brain is flooded with regrets...and misgivings. I'm bombarded by past mistakes.