my first credit card purchase

I have entered the twilight zone from where I shall never return. There was such a powerful feeling when I brought myself a Flickr pro account with my brand spanking new credit card.

I labored over the purchase. I thought it was too extravagant. $42 for a poor college student is like $400. Imagine all the things I could purchase with that. Ponder it for a moment...Done.

Now the guilt hits me full force. Right after I saw a little 'pro' next to my name, I felt all weird inside. Regret came knocking. I wasn't sure it was worth it. Not at all. I just spent $42 on something I didn't need. It's just a purely selfish buy. There are other things I really wanted and needed.

I'm telling you, before I brought it, I burned with desire for a Flickr pro account. Yes, BURNED WITH DESIRE. I wanted it. Just because. I clicked on the 'buy now' button several times, but never had the guts to go through with it.

But now that I did, I feel so ashamed for having a selfish buy. How do I explain it to my parents? They don't know about Flickr. At least I don't think so. Because now they will know that this is just the beginning, and I'm going to be charging guilty pleasure buys to my account so long as there is life in me.

I am addicted.