i feel: blah

Here we go again. Me in a state of total confusion. Panicky. Hating myself for the choices I made. I’m profoundly intimidated by the course descriptions. That’s the problem. I knew reading it would deter me.

So I went over to another site, and again, got intimidated by that as well.

Gosh. What am I to do? I’m in a mess. A state that I hate being in. I wish I felt this way a couple of days ago.

It sounds so hard. Everything sounds so hard.

I don't know if this will pass. This feeling. That’s my problem. I get caught up in the moment. Will it pass? I doubt it. Will I feel as strongly about this tomorrow? Will I be intimidated by the course descriptions in other subjects as well? Probably, and that I can't control. I just have to train me not to freak out at every little thing.

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