bad days

I don't even know I’m having a bad day until it hits. BOOM. I don't expect it, but my anxiety kicks in and all hell breaks loose.

I’m not sure it's actually anxiety, but I’m guessing because it feels like crap.

Nothing has gone that badly, but nothing has gone perfectly either.

I don't know what it is about me that make everything harder for myself. What is it that I have against me succeeding? I want to succeed, but it seems like the actions that I take cause friction.

Sometimes I feel like I’m dying inside. Slow decay from paralyzing anxiety and self-doubt. I can't help myself.

I need a new frameset. I need confidence. I need a friend I can lean on. I need a guide who will show me the strength and courage I desire. I just need someone who understands.