from explodingdog
PS. Now my site can be also read in French. Hee...hee...
ETA: I’m feeling kinda weird about this whole b-day thing. I’m walking around like it's nothing. Nothings going to happen tomorrow.
Yet I know that somehow I should take a moment and "reflect" (I hate to use that word cuz it's so overused) on something. I'm not sure what. But something.
I'm no longer a "teenager." Sux. I loved my life free of responsibility. Living in an "expectionless free zone."
Right now, I'm in an extreme state of apathy and indifference (they mean basically the same thing, but I put them together for added emphasis). I don't know if I'm really feeling like this or it's the denial and repression acting up again.
Making adult decisions or decisions that will affect me in the future (i.e. where to go to college and what to study) is stressing me out.
I need to start making some serious decisions, and sticking to them. This shall be my new resolve. My goal for my 20th year.
A couple more hours till midnight, and I'm sitting here alone, watching SNL with Snoop Dog as host. Now, there's no better way to spend your b-day eve than this.
For nizzle my chizzle!
OR
Fo sheezy my neezy
(I'm not really in the know about this stuff)
I'm been so withdrawn lately, which is hard to admit cuz I'm pretty much a loner, but I'm feeling it more. It's like I'm too lazy to even care. I just shrug my shoulders and move on.
Me in life: "Arggg...who cares..."
ETA again: With me half watching, half listening to SNL, I still came away with the impression that Snoop Dog was pretty good. Avril Lavigne..hmm...not really. Yeah, cuz she's soooo punk.
